This
morning just before leaving the house for a walk, my daughter called quite
confused over what she was listening to in the scriptures. She happened to be on 1 Nephi 19 and she
wanted to know who was writing.
Having
this discussion with her brought a flood of memories to my mind that I decided
I want to commit to my “Scripture Musings”.
I
believe discouragement is one of Satan’s biggest tools. I have vivid memories of the early years after
my conversion. I had read The Book of
Mormon from cover to cover. I did not
understand all of it, but I enjoyed those stories I remembered and the lessons
they taught. It made me feel good and I
kept going back for more. This is key to
getting to the point of understanding.
As
I was walking this morning, I was listening to a podcast and the speaker said
something about “. . . line upon line precept upon precept”, which triggered a
chain of thoughts. I came home and
looked up the scripture. It is 2 Nephi
28:30 “For behold, thus saith the Lord God: I will give unto the children of
men line upon line, precept upon precept, here a little and there a little; and
blessed are those who hearken unto my precepts, and lend an ear unto my
counsel, for they shall learn wisdom; for unto him that receiveth I will give
more; and from them that shall say, We have enough, from them shall be taken
away even that which they have.”
Is
this not really the way it works? We are
given bits of knowledge at a time to learn from and digest, and then we are
given to know more as we seek it. It was
that way for me. I will never forget
sometime after conference when I was making my bed and pondering. I was thinking about reading the scriptures
and the fact I didn’t really have a reading schedule or goal. I said to myself, “who do you think they are
talking to when they say we need to be reading our scriptures?” That was the beginning of my serious
scripture study. I have since been able
to attend some scripture study classes which have been most helpful, but most
importantly, I have given myself to serious scripture study on my own
time. I’m grateful for the blessing of
being able to do so. I realize time is a
serious issue in all of our lives. I
will add next point to my ponderings of this day though.
I
had an opportunity to visit with a medical student who had some amazing
experiences getting him to where he was in his life. It could make a book, but I’ll pare it down. He had a strong testimony of the power of scripture
study because of an experience he had with his little brother who is
dyslexic. They were on a trip that was
halted because of poor weather which kept them in a hotel room for an extended
period of time. There wasn’t much else
they could do, so he read with his brother.
He worked with his brother as he read from the Book of Mormon. It was tedious and not particularly fun when
all of a sudden the words started to appear normal to his brother and he was
reading at grade level. He noticed this
to be at about 30 minutes into their session of reading. So the next day, they read again for thirty
minutes from the Book of Mormon and the same thing happened again. It looked to him as if 30 minutes was a magic
time. From that point on, his brother
was reading at least 30 minutes daily from the Book of Mormon and it was as
though he had no dyslexic problem at all!
So
what does this have to do with me? Well,
I was struggling more than ever to have the energy I needed daily to meet the
demands that were placed on me. I
couldn’t care for my family decently say nothing about read my scriptures. This young man’s story had not fallen on deaf
ears. I knew I needed to recommit myself
to reading my scriptures. The next day,
I awoke 30 minutes earlier than usual and read my Book of Mormon. I set the alarm for 30 minutes while I read my
scriptures. I noticed it wasn’t long
before setting the alarm wasn’t necessary.
Sometimes I read longer. This
next observation was the miracle. I
noticed I made it through my day with energy to spare. This boost to my energy allowed me to
accomplish more in my day than I otherwise would have. It truly seemed to me to be a miracle.
These
meanderings seemed to take me in a direction different from what I first
intended. I added to my scripture study
ready references in the footnotes. Most
often it would lead to greater understanding of what I was reading. I also started writing in the margins of my
own book so they became my scriptures – messages for me. This is greatly improved my understanding and
ability to remember what I’ve been reading.
I
guess what I’m trying to say is this:
Don’t be discouraged that you don’t understand all there is to
understand today. It is a process. Just as Nephi said in 2 Nephi 28:30 – “. . .
line upon line precept upon precept, here a little and there a little. . .” It will come.
Just keep doing your best to add to the knowledge you have so far. I testify it will come!